if it will end something. if it will partially or entirely erase some from history.
there is still so much to reach for.
all your previous actions, were they bad or good led to this moment. but life doesn't just stop now, because there will always be something to do.
past you wouldn't want all their effort to be wasted like this. none of your friends, even if they're former now, or your family, acquaintances, anyone, would want you to do this.
it can, and hopefully will get better. under the condition that you will walk another mile to make it so. otherwise it's hopeless, but don't let that mindset occupy your head.
positive must always prevail.